Tuesday, April 17, 2012

In the beginning everything was fine

  When me and my other half got married it was last minuet and unexpected. His mom was like, well there is a Halloween party and the host just happens to be an ordained minister wouldn't it be cool if you got married there.
  We agreed and the next night we had a crazy wedding and was married by a lady dressed as Elvira. You know the lady on TV dressed in the black dress with big boobs. Rings a bell now huh. The bad thing was is that it was HIS moms friends. I didn't know anyone there I felt like It was almost a shot gun wedding.
  We laughed about it and told people over time we were married and the responses we got from people were a little more harsh than words of happiness. Know one in my family approved of what we did that we should have waited and got married in a church. We didn't have that kind of money, we took what we could get, we were young and stupid and didn't care.
  After we told everyone things started to get bad in our relationship. We stopped talking to each other, we couldn't agree on the smallest things, and he started to get violet. I had many of chances to leave but felt like I had to stay, through sickness and in health I would think. That I could get through this and change him and we would go on and be a family.
  No matter what I did, it wasn't right.No matter how many hours I pulled at work it wasn't enough, I needed to get away before my daughter grows up thinking this is how all men act.
  For four years I dealt with the arguing, the loss of a child, our first son, in a car accident, the birth of another son and the loss of another son due to miscarriage till I decided enough was enough. All the things I've been through and done for this man if he couldn't appreciate me our children, and constantly with the name calling and arguing I just couldn't take it any more. The violence was growing and I had to get out of there before something happened.. So I left for a little while till he convinced me to give it another try and I foolishly gave in and went back.

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